“Likewise, ye younger, submit yourselves unto the elder. Yea, all of you be subject (submissive) one to another, and be clothed with humility: for God resisteth the proud, and giveth grace to the humble.“ 1 Peter 5:5
I never like to overstay my welcome or be in a room where everyone is laughing, including me, because I don’t realize I am the subject of the joke. I like to be self aware, and I like to see myself for who I am and not simply what I want myself to be. I know I have blind spots, but I try to eliminate those as soon as I am made aware of my shortcomings. As long as I live, there will be things I need to work on. I will not see perfection until I close my eyes on this earth and open them again in Heaven, but I strive to improve on a daily basis.
There have been many times in my life when I was confronted with an issue to which I was oblivious. I have heard that feedback is a gift, but it is not a gift I have always wanted. I have not always taken feedback well, and I have not always responded correctly to people who have confronted me about issues in my life. I have gotten angry, severed relationships, or failed to see my fault in the situation. My pride inflated my ego, and I was sinful in my reaction to the feedback. My pride has cost me promotions, jobs, and relationships, and brought me a lot of pain and suffering. God has been working on me with how I react to being confronted, and I am grateful for the help He gives.
I was recently at the state fair to pass out Bibles through the Gideon’s Ministry, when I was faced with a “sanctification test”. I overheard a fellow Gideon, who is essentially my leader who I report to, speaking about a person whom I know very well. He was not speaking to me, but I excitedly turned around and joined the conversation. I said the person’s name, and my fellow Gideon responded in a way that upset me quite a bit. He looked me in the eye and said, “You try to join in the middle of a conversation, and I am not talking about who you think I’m talking about.” I glared at him with a look that could kill and adrenaline filled my veins. I took a deep breath and turned around to pass out some Bibles, but I was fighting my flesh that wanted to lash out against this man. A lot of thoughts raced in my mind, but they were all sinful and ungodly. I was at the crossroads of what to do when God started to work on my heart.
I was convicted of my sinful thoughts, and God revealed to me that I was wrong to interrupt this man. I did not do it on purpose, but it was rude of me to interrupt and I needed to own that. I was passing out Bibles and here I was getting upset over trivial things. I allowed this aggravation to take over, and I forgot why I was at the fair in the first place. I am grateful for the conviction God brought to my heart, and I am grateful that He has worked in my heart to respond correctly to His conviction.
God will always resist those who buck up against conviction and harden their hearts against it. Our pride leads to destruction and we often cannot see past our own sin as we dwell on and point out the sins of others.
Have you been convicted of something that you need to repent of? Are you humbling yourself to what God has shown you or have you lifted yourself up and rejected God’s conviction? Are you easily offended and angered? What does it take for you to get upset and lose your cool? May we be humble in all things, and may we be quick to change what God convicts us about. A current account with God is one that reflects a life of humility and is pleasing to God. May we advantage ourselves of God’s grace as we walk before Him, and may the first thing we put on in the morning be humility.
Stay in the fight!