Doubting The Lord
"And Moses said, The people, among whom I am, are six hundred thousand footmen; and thou hast said, I will give them flesh (meat), that they may eat a whole month. Shall the flocks and the herds be slain (slaughtered) for them, to suffice (provide enough for) them? or shall all the fish of the sea be gathered together for them, to suffice them? And the Lord said unto Moses, Is the Lord's hand waxed short (shortened)? thou shalt see now whether my word shall come to pass unto thee or not." Numbers 11: 21-23
I imagine you are much like me in the fact that you have doubted God a time or two when you saw the impossible and waved the white flag of hopelessness. You may have been guilty of saying, "Well if all else fails, I will pray about it." We all face problems in life, and we sometimes act like we are without hope when we have the Hope of the world. I regret that I have had doubts in my life, and I have whispered to myself the lie that God did not care or was interested in my problems.
I was struggling at work and desperately looking for a way out. Much of my free time was spent scouring the internet looking for a job that would suit my best. I put in hundreds of applications to jobs I wanted, and then I expanded my search to jobs that were only borderline things I wanted to do. I was not doing so hot in my current job, and I was miserable. I used to save the job rejections that I seemed to get on a daily basis until my file was too full. It was difficult to find the positive. I asked people to pray for me in finding a new job, but I am not sure that I truly believed things would ever change or that I would find a new job.
God was not opening doors as I had anticipated and my faith was at an all-time low. I should have not lost hope or questioned God, but I did, and I wondered if I was simply talking to the air when I prayed. Through the waiting, though, God taught me contentment in the job I already had, and he opened my eyes to things in my own life that needed to change. Although I doubted what God could do, He continued to teach me that He was enough for me to be content in Him and not to try and find contentment in a job. I tried God and He once again showed me His great faithfulness.
Moses was faced with leading a massive group of people, which included taking care of and feeding them. He questioned how God would provide for everyone as if God had not done this type of thing before. We would be tempted to shake our head at Moses questioning God, but we don't have to look too long to see that same doubt in our heart and lives. We question God’s sovereignty and we act as if He did not allow the trial or problem in our life. We forget that He is all-knowing and that He has plan for everything He has allowed in our life. Moses questioned God and God told him to watch and see what He would do. We often learn that God is the biggest in the most adverse situations as He is the only One who can change the unchangeable and do that which seems impossible. Matthew 19:26 states, "But Jesus beheld (looked at) them, and said unto them, With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible."
In what trial are you doubting God? In which area are you questioning what He can do? Is there someone who needs to be saved that you have given up on? Have you whispered under your breath that God is not able to do the impossible? The God we pray to today is the same One who parted the Red Sea. We serve a faithful God who is the doer of what man deems impossible, and if we prove Him, we will always find Him faithful. May we be careful in our complaining and questioning God, and may we be faithful in putting our full dependence on Him.
Stay in the faith!