“So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.” Hebrews 13:6
I was let go from a job in February 2010, and I felt like I was out of a work for a long time. I began submitting applications anywhere and everywhere, and I was willing to do anything. I saw an old friend at the gym and he advised me his wife was hiring. I quickly completed the paperwork and was granted an interview. I became hopeful at the prospect of working again.
I was hired into the world of retail, and I was excited at the smell of popcorn and new merchandise. My boss was nice in the interview, and I assumed we would be great and we would do big things together. My boss was former military, and I quickly learned that he had little patience for mistakes. He gave me a (very) brief grace period and then he became someone I began to dread. I once showed up to work and was greeted with the remark, “You are the most annoying person in the world.” I usually need time to work up to an annoyance level, but I apparently took him there first thing in the morning.
He expected perfection and was unwilling to listen to excuses. He wanted results and he wanted them yesterday. The job I once was excited for turned out to be one I despised. I would pull into the parking lot and fear and anger would overcome me. I was literally a hot mess, and I was scared I was going to lose my job. I lost patches of hair and years off of my life. People usually don’t have that effect on me, but my boss was really inside of my head. I complained about my situation but I did little to seek my true Help. I did not pray as I should, and I felt defeated and helpless. The fear of man brought about many problems for me, and I wish I would have called on God sooner.
I began to pray about my situation and more importantly, pray for my boss and my attitude towards him. I was obstinate to him and not the testimony I needed to be. God started to work on me, and I became less fearful of my boss. Soon after I began to pray, my boss got another position and eventually moved to another store. I still pray for my old boss to be saved, and my hair for the most part has grown back. I am not fearful of him anymore and my stomach is no longer in knots. Years later, I ran into him and asked him for forgiveness. We are not best friends, but it was honestly good to see him and a reminder to continue to pray for him.
Is there someone you fear today? Are you losing hair or is your stomach in knots? Have you sought the help of your Helper? Are you allowing Him to change you to be what you need to be? Do you become fearful because you lack trust and faith in almighty God? Proverbs 29:25 states, “The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe.” May we learn to trust in our Lord and may we rest in His safety.
Stay in the fight!