“Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.“ Psalm 139:23-24
I am one who obsesses when I lose something, and I cannot find rest until I find the item I have lost. It could be a pen, a cup or a lost wallet. An early night has at times turned into a long night as I searched until I found the item. I am not sure what it is in me, but I cannot stop looking for or thinking about the lost object until I find it or at least know where it is. Sleep has evaded me at times due to this persistence.
Luke 15:8 states, “Either (Or) what woman having ten pieces of silver, if she lose one piece, doth not light a candle, and sweep the house, and seek diligently till she find it?” I know this verse is speaking of one who repents and accepts Jesus Christ, but I have been just like this woman, sweeping the house and looking my lost Item. The most common item I have misplaced is my wallet. I have misplaced it in my car, my home, and even in a gym locker. I don’t carry much cash, but I do have a few credit cards and my driver’s license, which is a pain to replace. I try to put my wallet in the same place everyday to avoid misplacing it, and also so I don’t worry about where it is.
I recently came home late from the gym, and my keys were dangling out of my pocket. I knew this was not a good thing, and I dug into my pocket looking for my wallet. My wallet was not in there and my hopes of going to bed early dissipated right before my eyes. I decided to go to back to the gym and look in the parking lot for my lost wallet, but I thought I would search my car first. I pulled my seat forward and back but did not see it. I looked from the back seat as well, and I figured it must have fallen out of my pocket at the gym. I was getting ready to go check the parking lot when I thought to check my car once last time.
I started to go through the same routine but this time, I looked on the opposite side of my seat and my wallet glistened as I shone my phone light on it. I was relieved that I had found it, and I was relieved that I only spent 20 minutes looking. I had already planned to spend hours looking as I had done many times before. I am diligent in looking for what I have lost, but I do not always do this when I look for faults and sins in my life.
David’s prayer was to be searched by almighty God and to be made aware of sin that he had not taken care of. He wanted God to search him as I searched for my lost wallet. He wanted to be aware of the things that were separating him from God. He wanted nothing between himself and his Savior, and He desired that God would search the most intimate parts of His heart to reveal the sin that lied there. Our thought are often hidden from others, but God knows all of our thoughts and motives. I am convicted by David’s prayer as I have not asked God to search me as I have searched for things in my life.
Where are you today friend? Do you ask God to search your heart for the sins in your life? What are you doing with the sins God has brought to your mind and heart? Are you confessing and forsaking them, or are you continuing on the path to destruction? May we ask God to search our hearts and minds, and may we make right with Him the sins He brings to light. May we follow Him in the way everlasting, and may we keep current our account with Him.
Stay in the fight!